Bit disappointed today.  What had promised to be a big day turned out to be more of a damp squib!!

3 weeks ago I underwent DBS surgery at the Atkinson Morley in  London.  Before I was discharged my battery ‘implant’ was turned on at a very, very low level.  Today I was due to go in for the ‘major unveiling’; or as I told everyone (and is listed in my diary), the great ‘turn on’.

It was not.

I suffered again this morning by trying to stay, as requested, off my medication as much a possible, prior to this appointment, so that we (the Doctors and I) could see the improvement that this surgery would achieve. Sadly the results were not as impressive as I had longed for.

One of my younger brothers’  drove me in (as a last-minute replacement…driver-wise) and I expected to be in for a good few hours (as I had been informed).  So it was no surprise to find that I was feeling pretty rough by the time I was dropped off and attended my appointment.  After the usual pleasantries the Doctor reprogrammed me and changed my medication regime.  Whilst still at a very low setting he did ramp it up a bit, and had me walking up and down the corridor, again and again and was happy with my progress.

But I was disappointed.  I though the improvement would be much more marked.

But then again, I realised that this would be done gradually and that it was my expectations that were getting the better of me.

So, I go back in two weeks for another (longer) reprogramming session (and, maybe, even get to take a ‘remote’ home with me) but also to settle down into the reduced pill intake.

I remember now that I have to be slowly weaned off the medication.  It cannot be done quickly and the process of reducing the meds whilst increasing the output will now take about 6 months.

So today was more of a Fizzle rather than a glorious turning on!!!

We shall see what tomorrow brings when I try the new regime from scratch!!





Its been a while (a couple of years in fact), but Parkinsons has not been kind and typing Blogs and the like has been a fun but time consuming chore.


much has happened since then…

I have, at the momemt, separated from my wife and moved into a flat.  Sold my previous property (my wife and daughter) now having found something elsewhere to live.  David Cameron, I understand, is no longer Prime Minister but has resigned? Therese May is now PM?  The UK voted to leave the EU??!!!  Donald Trump has been elected President ……and most of all I have undergone a brain surgery technique to help deal with my condition.

The latter was a 5 – 6 hour operation the success of which I will elucidate further at another time BUT the fact that I have even shown an interest in this Blog could be construed as a positive step and a move in the right  direction.  We shall see.  But just to finish this post and make quite a few green with envy I have added these couple of pictures…that helped me get through a particularly difficult time….


….and to follow the last post, and in conjunction with it.

I recently attened a Level 2 Coaching in Taekwondo Course run by the NGB, British Taekwondo.

It was a good course, with excellent tutors and pleasant Taekwondo associates (fellow Instructors).  There was much debate and discussion and one the Tutors (a very nice guy who’ve I’ve met on many occassions) made a very up-beat statement.

He said (especially when having to talk to non-Taekwondo people – funders/councils/local officials)

“I do the best sport there is!”

(and I won’t get drawn, for now, into the discussion about ‘sport’ and ‘martial art’)

He went on:

“everything you do in any other ‘sport’, you do in Taekwondo!”

“You can’t name an activity that isn’t served by training in Taekwondo!”

“I do the best sport in the world”

Flexibility, Strength, Focus, Meditation, Concentration, Aerobic exercise, Reactions, Balance, Poise, Anearobic exercise, Courage, Memory, Agility, Adaptability, Motivation, Competition, Relaxation, Breathing technique, Massage/Manipulation/Acu-pressure, Health, Posture, Right/Left brain dominance, Ampidextrocity, Logic, Problem solving, Cardiovascular exercise, Respiratory exercise, Hormonal control, Empathy, Sympathy, Linguistics, Philosophy, Ethics, Morals, Self-Control, Etiquette, Endurance, Perserverance, Modesty, Humility, Indomitability, Spirituality, ….to name but a few…

…Oh! and you can learn to kick-ass too!


This post is going to have a long thread into the future.  So much so that I’m even thinking of writing it up as a book.  Wow! you might think but it’s about time I wrote something of note.  Secretly I’ve always wanted to be an author but as Sue Townsend once said.  You are either a writer or your not.  There is no such thing as a budding author or potential writer.  You either write or you don’t

So to all of you out there.  Get out and get stuff down on paper.

But I digress

I teach Tai Chi to a U3A group (University of the 3rd Age)(Old people to you and me….and I don’t mean that as in insult either).

The director/CEO/boss whatever came along to one session to check it out.  Afterwards we usually stop for coffee/tea and it was then that he quite directly asked me what I and everyone else hoped to gain from Tai Chi and want was the point!

No there was a slight pause as I thought about it.

What is the point of any Martial Art?

I could give the usual answers of, fitness, self-defence, health, etc etc etc. But this time, maybe because of Parkinsons’ (energy is limited, so lengthy conversations as avoided) and thought about giving a simple, easy answer; and as always the more I thought about it the more the world and everything that’s in it came raging and crashing through my mind.  Ideas and thoughts rushed through in na torrent.  So much so that it, also as usual, becomes diffcult to pick out the relevant bits.

Then it popped into my head…..


pure and simple


Tai Chi is about Balance…

Martial arts is about Balance

Life is about…


Physically, morally, metaphorically, spiritually, emotionally, mentally, metaphyisically, socially, psychologically, aesthetically, economically, ethically….

The list goes on and on.

In every aspect, it’s all about Balance. Being grounded, being immovable, untouchable, being so strong that the time and tide of life breaks on your shores, being comfortable, secure and in control of your own ‘space’ and the environment around you.

So this is just for starters.

When I asked some of my students, later that day, what one word they would use when asked the same question.  No-one could think of anything.  When I explained my thoughts, most, afterwards, agreed with me and thought it was the perfect answer.

No my mind is racing again I have to much more to write; so this Blog will have to be followed up….


I attended a Taekwondo Coaching Course last week (I have the practical in a months time!!) and between us we counted about 500 years of Taekwondo experience and at least 350 years of Taekwondo Instruction!!

Later on Day 2 the subject of respect came up and the requirement (or not) of Instructors being addressed as ‘Sir’ (or Ms).  Naturally there were differing opinions and some lively debate.

In the days of Old, failure to show respect and address your Instructor with due reverence was met with suitable, dire consequences and various physical punishments were meted out.

Things have changed somewhat (although by repetition and indoctrination I cannot address my Master by any other term…but then I don’t want to!!) and imposed discipline and required etiquette are no longer instilled or demanded.

..but is that so bad??

Should we ‘command respect’?

or should we ‘earn respect’?

My feeling is the latter.  hence my desire to address my Master as ‘Sir’.

Surely earning an accolade is better than commanding it?

I notice the course is a ‘coaching’ course not an ‘instructors course’.  A small change in wording but then I think it says heaps and illustrates a better and more enlightened way of teaching.

….and surely…. I look forward to the day when I am able to call my students ‘Sir’!

Then I have truly, succeeded and I have not failed in my task!!!!!!


I must give a special mention to an ex-Stage Manager of mine who for some masocistic reason decided to run the London Marathon today…carrying a ‘Water-Melon’

Ours is not to reason why suffice to say my mind reeled with sarcastic comments

…and that it was not an easy task and she suffered greatly!!!

….but on the bright side she has raised over £12,000 for Cancer relief!!!!

Need I say more?


The most famous equation!

The most important!

Matter is Energy!

We are made up of Matter; the stuff of Stars.  Star’s are the source of all ‘life’, all energy, all light!

In a subjective way we are the centre of the Universe and everything else revolves around us.  We are Stars!

….and what do Star’s do?

So if you’re depressed, cold, alone and in a ‘dark’ place…

you’ve forgotten to get out there and bloody……..



Am pleased to see that I have another article published in ‘my’ Regimental Magazine, the Grenadier Gazette.

Too bad most of you won’t ever get to see a copy.

It was about our ‘Three Men in a Boat’ trip, but then I have already copied the article on this Blog, so you’ll have to go back a few pages.